It is always good to evaluate and re-evaluate your work, situation, spiritual life, relationships, motives, and the list goes on and on….
There are different times in life that I tend to do this, and sometimes I do it too much… but what I have come to find out about myself is that “Too Much” sometimes defines who I am. But… I am who God created me to be. My prayer has been this, this past month:
Psalm 139: 23-24
Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.
Sometimes I worry too much, care too much, give too much, trust too much, love too much, work too much, say too much, expect too much…. again… the list goes on…
So is this a good thing? Is it a bad thing? I guess it depends. Obviously, I shouldn’t worry too much… but, the others…. it is part of who I am. If it is worth doing, I will give it my all. I will work, love, give, trust, care, … with everything I am….
What I hope is that in those things, that God shines through. One of my Senior quotes (yes I had 2 because I couldn’t decide…), but one of them said “If you meet me and forget me, you have lost nothing, but if you meet Jesus and forget him, you have lost everything”… I have no idea who originally said this, but it is what I truly hope for in those I come in contact with. James 3:30 “He must increase, but I must decrease” Because, ultimately my too much is all about HIM and HIM alone. Even when I mess up… too much…. I hope my repentance is enough.
So, in my work, in my relationships, in my giving… and in my repentance….I hope that in it all, I bring HIM Glory.